Thursday, July 1, 2010
Thursday Morning Free Writing - One day You'll be Big Enough
Where did the time go?I used to to 21 with a new Hubby and new baby - I remember those easy breezy days when everything was brand new and wonderful. I say easy because as compared to now they were. Only one little baby to get to sleep at night, one to feed and clean, only one to worry about.
When did I become a 31 year old Mom of 4?
Now it seems like I am living the same days over and over:
Making the choice to ignore certain things (like a tantrum) because I know better than to react.
Child not eating their veggies?
I know what to do with that too - ask them to try it - and at the next meal - put some more on their plate.
Someone took your toy? Go find another - this fight will never end well anyway -if you were born the youngest boy of 3 - just do the best you can with the hand you were dealt. One day you will be big enough to run with the big boys. This is a phrase that I have uttered to every one of my boys.
Yesterday day it happened. My youngest son is old enough, big enough, tall enough and strong enough to run with the big boys.
So while Miss Maddy and I waited on the bench that Incredible Pizza was so nice to provide this tired Mama...I watch the boys run together - I knew this moment would come - I have been talking about it for what seems like forever.
I thought that I was prepared for it too. That I would feel this tremendous sense of pride and accomplishment - and for a moment I did...but was left with a feeling of disappointment and I gotta say a whole lot of denial.
Now mind you - they are only 9, 8, & 5 - so it's not like they are moving out tomorrow - but we are moving on to a new phase in their lives...where they Mom is more of a dispenser of money, rides and pride rather than a companion.
It feels like the beginning of the end though - the end of an era of tonka, Thomas, and a child for each arm and foot on my body, a kiss making it feel better, and sitting with 2 kids on the park bench instead of just one.
Thank goodness there is still Miss Maddy - I don't know what I will do when she starts to outgrow her Mom Mom.
They may not need me as much - But I will always be here for them.
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Such a sweet post. It does go by so quickly.
ReplyDeleteSo cute! Why do they have to grow up so fast. Mine are still toddlers but it seems like even that is flying by!
ReplyDelete-Jenn/Bowinhairos
What a sweet post.
ReplyDeleteI felt that way when we went to Darien Lake this year. Ian was tall enough to ride everything by himself. Where did the time go?
Awww I'm not ready for that. Anytime I see Gabe do something on his own it makes me want to cry. (Like VBS and their little end of the week production.) Can they stay little without all the whining and screaming and hitting?
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh...you go and get me all teary eyed on a Friday! Just the thought of Jack in preschool a few mornings a week is about all I can handle right now. It's crazy those days you just wish your kids were a bit older and more independent, and then "poof" it's here. sigh...
ReplyDeletetoo cute! your a good mom!!!
ReplyDeletemiss ya!
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